I had hit the lowest low that I have known
Every day a bit harder than each yesterday
God forbid that any man should know that
level of hopelessness and desperation
It was there, in my darkest night
When laughter ran away from me
And shadows tore at my soul, that I found
I was one man, alone, against the world
Beating my chest and demanding a fair shake
Never really stopping to ask what would
truly satisfy this longing within me.
Hard living has taken its' toll
And the fleeting moments of peace seemed
to fade ever faster
Leaving me with nothing to show for all
Writhing in self-pity and empty pride
I gave up and resigned myself to the shadows
Knowing I wasn't long for this world, and
hoping for nothing more
But through the darkness a light shone upon
In my shame I turned away at first, but
"What do I have to lose?"
The words rang throughout my head for a
But there, in my filth, in my guilt, and
in my weakness
Was the reason I started seeking...
Because this was the best I could do, this
was my apex
And there, in the Valley of Shadows, God
From the ashes of my old life He built me
up into a new man
Most of the time I fought Him as He patiently
Temptations, frustrations, sometimes I just
I try to understand the Carpenter who died
my death for me
But mystery still surrounds me and blinds
But the one truth that I have found
The one thing I can pass on to those who
come after me is this...
Never, never give up.
Thank you, Jesus.